don't read this piece o'shit

sleeping pills. the only thing that stopped me from thinking too much at bedtime. suddenly my brain feels like dozing off after taking just one. but there are times when i feel the need to take more than just that. i call them urges. unnecessary urges that feel like it is badly needed to be done. so why bother calling them unnecessary if it is badly needed? should i say nonessential instead? or unwanted? maybe optional. thats it. optional. its up for me to choose. but if there are no choices why fuckin bother pick out one? im not making any sense but this is my brain speaking after devouring two.