Shatter

I was staring at this blank page for about 10 mins before I came up with something to write. I don't even know how to start, and for a second I was thinking why would someone like you care about my rants when in this world, there is so much more important matters for discussion? To tell you honestly, I don't know. And I don't even care. I just wanted something to purge out my emotions than the usual crying and binge eating then throwing up after. I don't have a cig in my purse since I decided to ditch the vice 5 months ago. I have relapses but I don't crave for it like a mad man running around naked.

Across from where I was sitting were kids playing football. While hearing Zsa Zsa Padilla on TV answering the question about marriage with Dolphy, I wonder what life is for those kids if I ever tried asking them that question. Coz maybe, just maybe I would find a simple reason to move on. And maybe I would realize happiness could be found simply by kicking balls. (Pun intended)

I wish I was young again. Where life is much simpler and love was defined by shower of toys and candies, where object permanence would sneak away your fears. I miss you...

"Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation."

Kahlil Gibran

This bothers me

Ok so here's the deal. My boyfriend limited the time I get to spend with my friends to the point I realized how ridiculous this set up is, I will have to laugh.

I always ended up sitting at home watching tv, memorizing every commercial line there is and basically growing out of it. This made me feel like I'm the most isolated person in the world and I REALLY can't fuckin' deal with this anymore.

The harder I try to get hold onto it, the more it slips through my fingers. So live it up today cause there may be not enough tomorrows. 

When things doesn't fall exactly the way you want them to be, persons, individuals, humans, mortals or just human beings in general tend to dive into a situation where one feels safe and at ease long until they can manage to get out from it and take chances again.

Mga Payo ni Ama't Ina

Question: Can love change oneself?

"Well the question is do you think one would be willing to change for love? Because no one could change someone. When you're committed to a person you are committed to himself, meaning the whole of the person bad or good. It'll be impossible to change someone for love or someone to change for love. The answer is no. Maybe this help...

Love is patient and kind; Love is not jealous or boastful; it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. (1 Cor. 13:4-8)" 

Love: Mom

"Ikaw kapag nasa sasakyan ka, wag kang samlang! Wala ka nang ginawa kundi mangulangot tapos kung san-san mo lang naman pinipitik!                                                     

Nagmamahal: Tatay Mo